[The growing distance strikes fear in Albert. He never wanted to lose William. He never wanted to be without him. A slow, simmering panic is building as he feels the gulf widen, and he doesn't know what to do.
And yet, Albert knows. He understands that this is because of his devotion to William. That this pain is because he won't let his brother go. Even if he could boldly say to Ignis that he needs to find his own path, walking away from William to any degree is terrifying, and he hates it. Loving William is all that's kept him afloat for so long.
If he can be open and vulnerable with Ignis, he can find it in himself to be so with William, too.]
Don't... speak as though you're going to abandon me, dear brother. Please. I lived a mere month without you here, and it was far too long.
[He breathes in, lets it out slowly. Leans in to press a kiss to William's cheek, then finds his brother's eyes.]
I just... [He falters, then tries again.] I want the chance to do things differently here. I told you this. That's all I can ask, Will. Let me do things by my rules and standards, but be by my side. Even if I gain political power, I'll still need your mind and your affection to stay alive. If only we could spill less blood, and accomplish the same. A more civilized route. If it proves impossible, I'll call myself wrong and repent, but until then I want to have tried. That's how I'll make myself a better man.
[A slow, deep breath again.] Ignis... That's his name. He's brilliant, William. He's gorgeous, he's kind, he's incredibly capable, and he understands me. He... [He's so sorry to say this to William, who he loves from the bottom of his heart.] He is what I have long needed to soothe wounds of my own making.
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And yet, Albert knows. He understands that this is because of his devotion to William. That this pain is because he won't let his brother go. Even if he could boldly say to Ignis that he needs to find his own path, walking away from William to any degree is terrifying, and he hates it. Loving William is all that's kept him afloat for so long.
If he can be open and vulnerable with Ignis, he can find it in himself to be so with William, too.]
Don't... speak as though you're going to abandon me, dear brother. Please. I lived a mere month without you here, and it was far too long.
[He breathes in, lets it out slowly. Leans in to press a kiss to William's cheek, then finds his brother's eyes.]
I just... [He falters, then tries again.] I want the chance to do things differently here. I told you this. That's all I can ask, Will. Let me do things by my rules and standards, but be by my side. Even if I gain political power, I'll still need your mind and your affection to stay alive. If only we could spill less blood, and accomplish the same. A more civilized route. If it proves impossible, I'll call myself wrong and repent, but until then I want to have tried. That's how I'll make myself a better man.
[A slow, deep breath again.] Ignis... That's his name. He's brilliant, William. He's gorgeous, he's kind, he's incredibly capable, and he understands me. He... [He's so sorry to say this to William, who he loves from the bottom of his heart.] He is what I have long needed to soothe wounds of my own making.